All Rowelled Up

Baby Fat

Well, tomorrow Evelyn will be 12 weeks old and I'm still wearing maternity pants.  I just can't bare to put on a regular pair of jeans cause it is muffin top city.  Maternity pants at least smooth some things over.  I have some serious weight to lose (30 pounds to be exact) and I need to stop telling myself every Sunday night that "I'm getting serious about my food and exercise tomorrow."  I've been telling myself this for years and years now.  I never follow through and then I get upset when I see women with the body I would like to have.  This pattern has got stop!

I told myself when Evelyn was 6 weeks old and I was released to workout from my doctor that I was going to really focus on my food and get my butt moving.  I can't say I have been a total failure at it.  I did start counting my "points" and started doing Zumba but then I would totally ruin it the next day and then just make plans to start again the next Monday.  Something's gotta give! I've got to get more willpower (cause I have none!) 

I'm only 10 pounds heavier than I was before I got pregnant so I didn't have a horrible weight gain but I was wanting to lose 20 before then.  I look at my body and think to myself that this is just the way it's going to be from here on out.  I had a baby and my body changed and there is nothing I can do about it.  This is one of the trade-offs for having a baby.  Well I'm tired of thinking this way and I don't want to find myself using any of these as excuses.  This is probably a terrible time of year with all the holidays coming up to try to lose weight. What am I thinking??

Out on the town

I turn 32 in April and I hope to be celebrating with a new pant size :)

Here goes another try!